Scared to ask questions

I always want to get more help with my work, but I don’t know how to ask my teacher because I am afraid to ask. I am scared to ask when I need help because it is different here. Back in my home country, when I went to school I would go and sit in the classroom and talk and play around. When the teacher came and gave us work, everybody would go to the teacher and say they didn’t understand. People in my country don’t listen to the teacher because some students don’t care about college. It is not like here where some students love to finish school and go to college. It is so weird because I was never scared to ask a question in my country, but when I came to Tucson, I felt scared to ask my teachers questions. I had never asked people who know how to speak English before. I mean there are a lot of people from China who speak English in the Marshall Islands, but I didn’t. I guess I’m just scared to ask questions. I don’t want to ask questions because I don’t know everybody.

Some student think that I’m scared to ask questions because when I speak English some people said that I need to learn how to speak English. They say I don’t really know how to speak English, but they are wrong because I do know how to speak English. The problem is my tongue; that is why I am scared to ask questions because some people make fun when I speak English, especially my sister. She is always making fun of me when I say the word wrong.

I was feeling scared when I first came here because it was first day at school and I didn’t really know people. Now I am not scared to ask questions to all of my teachers because I really know them and every day we do presentations and it got me not to be scared to ask questions. It was hard for me to ask questions because everything was new to me.

I like the teachers to walk around and ask the students if they need help, like my 6^th period teacher. She always walks around and says, “Hey, are you okay?” I want to say that I am not scared of people I really know now, but I am still scared of other teachers because the way I see them when they get really angry is scary and I cannot ask a question to her.

I think that when I don’t ask questions and don’t understand, I am not going to able to go to college because I am scared to ask questions even though I really I want to ask questions. If I don’t understand and I don’t ask questions, I will not graduate because my grades are getting low. Nothing is going to be great in my life and everything I want for the future will be gone.  If I keep not asking questions, everything is going to change and I am going to lose everything important in my life and everything I told my mom when she was asking about me what am I going to do when I grow up.